I *still* have not weighed myself. I'm not sure if you fully understand the gravity of that statement. I weigh myself religiously, to the point of OCD behavior. Every time I see a scale, I weigh myself. If I go to my upstairs bathroom with the handy scale in it, I weigh myself - even if I have already weighed myself 4 other times that day. It started out as an accountability measure, and then it just became a crazy habit.
I know I gained a lot of weight this past year, but I assure you, had I not weighed myself constantly, I would have gained twice what I did. I gain weight MUCH faster than I lose it, so if it took me a year to lose 160 lbs, I could gain it back in 6 months easy if I'm not careful.
I thought about weighing myself this morning. My reasoning was that I'm worried I'm not losing weight because I haven't been able to exercise much, and I've had so much soup this week because that's all I can eat, and it's loaded with sodium, so I may have been trying really hard all week only to find out the things I'm doing aren't working...and if that's the case, I'd rather know now than on Tuesday when I have to report it!
I talked myself out of it, though. There's really nothing else I could be doing, so I just have to hope that some of this is working. I can't feel a difference in my clothes, and although Darcy said she can see a difference in my face, I cannot. I think my face looks very bloated from being ill, and I have no idea what she's seeing.
My fill is still in full affect. I haven't been able to eat regular foods yet. I'm still on soups and mushies. Today, we are having Alison over for Christmas and I'm making a chicken with root vegetables. The chicken is free range, grass fed, so it should be plenty moist. I'm going to make a fat free gravy, so I think that will help it go down, as long as I have teeny tiny bites. I'll just use a little butter spray on the root vegetables, and I'm sure they'll be fine, because they are all mushy in consistency once cooked.
I tried to have a dropped egg on toast for breakfast this morning, but no such luck. Eggs and bread are things that most lap band patients have trouble with. Even I have had trouble with some eggs before, and certainly some kinds of break. Toast is usually fine for me, though, as are wet eggs, but we're not there yet, and I'm fine with that. I'm loving the restriction I'm having. It's more than ever.
I'm hoping to go for a swim today. I didn't make it yesterday, as I was completely wiped out after work. 3 full days until I can finally weigh in. I don't think I've ever had a slower week in my life.
How are the rest of you doing??
2 comments:
glad you didn't weigh yourself cuz there is nothing more you can do so why look?
I know you'll have a good loss on Tuesday!
It's hard to break a habit you have been accustomed to, good for you overcoming that hurdle.
I see big numbers this week!
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